Dear people, dear ogres (sogr makes me always think of Fiona and Shrek and makes me smile :-))

I am so happy I have arrived here! I hope it's ok to say, I need you! I've tried alone all the way up to the crystalline mountain of ever abundant and magical life so many times, randomly reached beatiful vista points only to drop down back to the base camp where I have to clean my mudy (and moody :-) shoes again and again. I am notorious by insipiring others to walk with me, to show them the lands I see ahead of us, to sparkle some essence full of dreams all over them, many have told me they are so much better of once they have met me, even prospering better, yet than off they go with their businesses and personal growth and I somehow feel stuck with my own dillemas. Plus my best friends and family seem to look at me with surpise: why aren't YOU up on that mountain you show us again and again. My mother used to tell me: your problem is you are good at almost anything you do ... but I am not motivated to keep doing that … my best friend tells me the same, I just find it hard to stick with something. So they're damn right, why aren't I sitting at the top of the mountain laughing my head off myself? I don't know, I seem to believe in themself but not in me ... It's as if I care more about them than about myself. Last past years where crazy. I came back home to Czech Republic after 7 years of traveling and living abroad, found out nobody would hire someone like me (rebelious world wonderer), went for real estate business where it didn't seem to matter (other crazy people where there already), made good money, started my own real estate agency, learned so much about myself (as a terrible boss not able to manage myself and others) than ever before, made more money, lost money, made more money lost money, got completely wiped out by living a sort of not-self life, saw that I am more of an independent introvert that perhaps has some power to start up things or inspire others ... but what else? I started hating the phone ringing in my hand when others called ... hated the people wanting all to invest, save, not pay commissions often ... Than my mother got sick again, depressed to death, I tried all my inspiration power with her, I tried every healer out there (but she out-smart-assed them out, she's so damn hard headed and rebelious like me), all the techniques like EFT, The Journey, The Work ... I tried many things thinking ... if I find something that gets her out of the mysterious depression no one can heal, I will find out something that really works for ANYONE (me too? )... I was thinking of awakening programs and so on ... till I was getting home really depressed myself. I almost didn't want to live, that's how tired I was getting. One day my friend handed me a book on co-dependence and I could not believe it ... the anger rising up in me, the need to fix my mother, pull her up from the dump, the sacrification and my own depression immerging (I must admit I've been down the hell many times, but up in paradise as often, I am not afraid anymore)... ayayaya, that looked like me a lot ... so I stopped helping, I learned the most precious lesson out there ... I can not fix anyone, I can not push my inspiratin, my own happiness does not rely on anyobody else even though they look like they are dying and even thought that person happens to be my own beloved mom ... I am only wasting my own happiness and I do that quite habbitually since I was born (terrible realisation)... so I drifted away .. of course that didn't go well with my family, they sort of hate me now for dropping out of that system ... but I am on the way up, I feel it! I keep the power to myself now! For the first time in my life (35 already), I really feel I have the right to be happy just for that little reason!

So that's why I need you now. I am lucky to have a few really good friends but they are not so creating oriented like me. I really am crazy about being excellent creator, using my creative powers to the fullest! I know who I am! I know I am JOYA, ABUNDANCE, FREEDOM. I was tired these past few years trying to make the impossible happen and I want to be called JOYA now because I was not joya for a while. I would simply love to prosper myself now. Be happy, easy, loving, flowing, inspiring, BRINGING THE MAGIC INTO THE WORLD ... (I just did some meditation on my inner essence) ... YES, SOUNDS LIKE ME.

Are you still there?  Much love, yours sincerely JOYA

Hi Joya,
YOU are welcome to the forum. Love your story. it describes some aspect of my own life too uptill now. that is wanting to help other people, sacrificing my own happiness in the process. You have definitely come to the right place. looking forward to reading more from you.
Successfully yours
Abdul.

Joya, welcome to the forum. Did you enroll in the course?

Not quite sure what you are asking but I am waving Hi from The Netherlands

God bless you,

Caroline
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quote:

I really feel I have the right to be happy just for that little reason!

Welcome Joya! Here at this forum, you can BE happy for no reason!

Hello Joya

Welcome to TSOGR and these forums.

Not too sure if I'm reading your message corectly, but if it is about, finally doing for yourself first, before worrying about the rest of the world, then you've come to the right place.

Plenty of mountains to climb here, and plenty of willing and helping hands to help you on the journey.

Post regularly to these forums for help, support and clarification of aspects of TSOGR.

Blessings
Anaru

Dear friends, thank you for your warm welcomes!

Yes, it's just about that, putting my own happiness first now. I feel like most of my life I held back my own happiness because my loved ones where really miserable and I was trying to help them or not show my own happiness so loudly. Strange how it works.

Caroline, yes, I have enrolled for the course a while back, maybe several months ago. The book itself I had known and read even longer than that. It is beatiful, powerful, magical. But it is now that I have the time and peace to start the program step by step. So far I am on the 3rd class and already I have found out that really "the right to be rich" is mostly about "the right to be happy" for me. Because that means now I can be attracting money instead of chasing money.

Love to all of you, see you all on the forum! JOYA

I was so grateful to really read the first chapter of the book again, a few days ago. It reminded me that it is perfectly natural to want to be rich.

Have fun with the lifelabs, Joya!

God bless you,

Caroline
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Thank you, Caroline, I love the first chapter too.
It mostly reminded me about my birth right to be happy, joyous, attracting all that I need just because I am a child of this wonderful, abundant, ever expanding Universe. Doing the 1st Lab actually made me FEEL and REALIZE why I was not prospering for a while ... because I made the circtumstances (however painful they looked to me at the time when I was going through them with my family) rule over me and I believed I can not be happy and prosperous when they are not. And I made them so powerful in my mind and than felt soo bad and sad ... but now I am back. I realize through this forum how we tend to speak about others as the reason for not being happy and than we catch ourselves, hopefully, and get back to the loving source of all abundance. So, I am back. Even this intro seems like it's outdated, isn't it great? Thank you all! Love, JOYA

Thank you JOYA, for sharing.

I am happy where I am but there are quite a few things that I would like to be different than what they currently are. Maybe I will go through the lifelabs again another time.

God bless you,

Caroline
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Thank you, Caroline, for listening
When have YOU done the classes? A while back? (i see the amazingly large number of your posts )
Love to you, JOYA

You are welcome JOYA.

I was a member here for a very long time before I signed up for the classes. Not smart but the Formless is ok with it that we make our own choices.

I think the last time I did the lifelabs was almost a year ago. Every time I do them again, I learn new things because every time that I do them, I am not the same Caroline as I was the time before.

Enjoy your journey

God bless you,

Caroline
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I think I understand that very well! Thanks for sharing! New Caroline each day, sounds great!

Hi Joya,

I was off on vacation when you first posted this introduction, just getting around to reading it!

You are a very creative person who finds it easy to make money - and you have a lot of fun spending it! That's great, money was ment to be spent! And with your creativity you will always find other ways to make more money!

I have found that I enjoy spending money also, but have found that when I don't have much money I can cut back on my spending - and still feel rich! The first a-HA moment for me was discovering that I was already rich! I lived in a nice home, drove nice cars, ate food that I enjoyed, took an interesting trip somewhere in the world once a year, had a profitable business - but still felt poor!

Welcome aboard!

Welcome Joya!

You are so exuberant -- I'm excited to get to know you!

Love and blessings,
Rachel

Tom and Rachel, than you both! Such a pleasure to get to know you too! I've been reading some posts from both of you ... and loving it
Tom, thanks for this:
You are a very creative person who finds it easy to make money - and you have a lot of fun spending it! That's great, money was ment to be spent! And with your creativity you will always find other ways to make more money!
Rachel, thanks for your comment and writing ... and I am doing that thing you described once on the forum ... in my mind imagining myself excited and jumping up and down with excitement + I added the I'M RICH, I'M RICH ... FEELS GREAT, THANKS!!!

Rachel, I'm so sorry ... It was the other Rachel (YAY) who posted up the exercize I am doing ...
But interestingly enough I've read YAY's intro and you commented on being like her a bit so don't blame me for feeling confused now, haha RACHELS ARE COOL, WHAT ELSE TO SAY?