Have just started on the PG course. It is another step on the road towards full manifestation of my eternal self.

It's my physical birthday today so I gave the course to me.

This year I had set a vision for myself of cultivating Joy in my life. Had to go through some intense letting go. (quite a story in itself if anyone wants to hear) But have arrived at a really good place. :0D

The significance of the name I took on this forum says it all.

I was born in this season of JOY because it attracted me. I had been denying it because of what others had dumped on me.

Now I realize I accepted their dump. Could have told them to buzz off. But .... that's gone. I have learned a lot from it and am a better stronger more joyful person for it. They all showed me how precious my own nature is.

So this year I have made the commitment to get rid of whatever else is blocking the flow of joy. That's one of the reasons I was attracted to the course.

Answer to LL1 - What is "rich"?
To me "rich" is abundance without limits or blockages of flow (In or Out). If you set a limit on it, you are denying God the joy of giving to you unlimitedly which is His/Her nature.

I am certainly ready to explore that!!!;0D

Also ready to give what I have abundantly -
Joy and enthusiasm if anyone is ready to take.

Also ready to bless and enliven any greedy takers.

The only thing which cannot be used in the service of God and the Universe is envy.

Greed can be used so don't hang back. Be greedy for blessings and chances to bless.

Asking forgiveness from one and all and forgiving as I go.

Hi Christmas_Baby,

Love your name it made me laugh.

ANYWAYS, welcome on board and enjoy the course - I'm starting it again next week - NEW YEAR - NEW START.

Glad you've flushed all that Dump down the lavvy, just think by now it will have all been processed and be fresh clean water and whatever else they do with it at the plant.

With the old forgiveness stuff you might want to try this - when I woke up this morning I just lay there and kept saying to myself "I APPRECIATE YOU... I APPRECIATE YOU..." and I was smiling and it felt really Good. AHHHHH!

ME TOO!

Bonne Journee, Bonne Journee Mon Ami Je l'aime comme ca.

Hi Adrian

Thanks for the welcome!
Glad you could laugh. My friends all say I make them laugh a lot!

It's nice to know that when something goes down the lavvy (as you put it) that the Universe recycles it into something new and better. ;D

Now that's a pretty picture.
We can just dump all those negative garbage things down that there lavvy and know that everything will come out smelling like roses.


Good journey to you as well, my friend.

Good to meet you Christmas Baby! The joy is full here and I'll be happy to feel of yours whenever you share!

Loving this journey of a wonderful life....

Hello and Welcome, Christmas Baby!

As Vibrant said, there is much JOY here and its always in endless supply!

Namaste!

Hello and welcome Christmas_Baby - what a joyous image! Glad to have you here. I read your other post about manifesting joy in your life and overcoming some serious obstacles - it was a joy to read!!

Jayne

Hi Christmas_Baby,

I just finished up signing in as a n affiliate for free! I am at LL6 and just noticed the Free Affiliate sign in... this is after I have sent out like 50 e-mails to friends and family inviting themto check out what I found and am loving.

You will love it here and I am looking forward to reading your posts - its nice to immerse yourself in anothers joyful dance of life.

Would love to hear your triumphant story - put you on Buddies.

Christy

Thanks Vibrant for your welcome. It is good to have new friends to help grow my garden of my heart. Looking forward to seeing what we bloom together!

Namaste Linda - I respect the Divine within you as well.

I have also found that of all solutions the most subtle and powerful is JOY, it is undeniable and can overcome anything. It never runs out and I never get tired of it. When one gives it away it only grows more and more.


Hello Jayred - Glad you like the heart image of my name. It is an advantage to be the baby of the family. I can bubble and giggle and bring out so many smiles.

May we all be ever-young and bubbly.

By the mercy of the Supreme JOY, I have finally seen obstacles as messages of what I am not letting go. Now I welcome them as friends, teachers and loving reminders from Mother/Father God that I need to stop playing with razors and take the nice candy They are offering me Their precious little baby!!

Hey there ChristyElf

Maybe you can just send another email and ask everyone to sign in through your affiliate thingee.

I'll finish this post and let you hear my story in the next.

Just wanted to share, I am listening to Christmas music while I write this and have been all Season long all day long. Been doing some joyful dancing today. Get the urge too strong and can't stand still.

My husband and I had built up so much JOY we let loose on Christmas day and danced to Christmas music like two small children and laughed and laughed. It was the best Christmas present ever.

Love to everyone and a large enormous dose of JOY!

A quick summary of my path to joy this year.

Dec. 10, 2005 - The death of one of my sisters. We had known it was coming. Cancer....

This sister and I were not close because of differences of belief. I said light she said dark. We could not really even talk.

I was invited out of the last visits when everyone else came to say goodbye. It was said that maybe I shouldn't come to the funeral. A knife in the heart.

But I realized what Christ had said about His family being those who do the will of the Father. I have a large universal family and many on this planet.

We went to the Graveside service. A reading from her journal touched my heart and let me know she was in a good place. "I have finally realized that all God wants from us is a loving relationship." How sweet. It gave me JOY.

So the knife hurt but did no damage. I could let her go and bless her. It was her time to move on, I don't want her to suffer for anything she did to me. I only wish her JOY eternally.

My mother went into depression. I took the burden, not realizing what was in store. By comforting her, I had been working through my own pain.

We were doing major construction in the house to expand our ability to serve. Not the place for a woman in her late 70s who could barely walk, but she insisted.

We sped up construction and pushed my husband to a heart attack. It was the smallest possible, but a wake up call. Where was my heart? Beside his every minute.

By this major problem, I became aware of where my JOY is.

My determination was made strong and when the time came to face my mother who had spent a lifetime of putting knives into my heart, my armor was strong and she couldn't place anymore knives.

I simply saw a sad lonely person who needed love and JOY within her own heart. I tried to give it, she would not accept and attacked.

So I finally realized it was out of my hands.
I went to God in prayer
My exact prayer was.

Most beloved Mother and Father God, I cannot help this woman whom you have given me as my mother. She has taught me much, but I am not able to reach her.

If you want her to stay in this house, I am ready to bless her. But you must change her heart. She must be peaceful and happy here.

If you do not want her to stay, then these are the things she needs.
(I gave a specific list of her problems and what I knew by prayer and meditation to be the solutions)
1. She cannot walk because her hip has grown a bone spur and so she cannot care for herself. If you want her to live alone, please let her walk.

2. She has a deep fear of Doctors and is treating herself for Diabetes. I believe she is making herself sick. Please get her into the medical system to have a complete check-up and so she can get good help for whatever she really has as a problem. She will not co-operate with me in this even though that was our original agreement.

Other that that, you know what she needs to be happy.

Within 3 hours, while standing completely still, my mother fell and couldn't get up. Within another hour she was in the hospital with the tiniest fracture possible.

Her pain was not too great. She was seen by some of the best doctors in the area. The bone doctor was considered one of the best in this area of the country.

The doctor in the emergency room gave us wonderful counsel in how to make sure all of her needs were taken care of and how to make sure she got physical therapy afterwards.

So many wonderful people came forth to give help and take the burden from me.

After surgery, she went to a nursing home. When it was time to be released, the doctor told her that AMAZINGLY the bone spur must have broken off in the gentle fall she had (from standing to laying on the floor in the same location)

She was now able to walk normally!!!
Rise and Walk and be healed!!!!!

She is now back in her own apartment, seeing the necessary doctors and peaceful.

My husband has completely recovered from the heart attack. No heart damage and EKG returned to normal.

My Realizations:
I had to let go of a dysfunctional family. My attachment to them had created a real blockage in my heart and created a manifested disease - which is now healing.

First was my sister. I forgave and blessed her. I let her go and understood that she is no longer my sister but always the dear child of Mother Father God.

Then my mother - I forgave her and understood her frailty. I let her go and let Mother Father God take her to Their arms and baby her as They know she needs.

For my husband - I promised myself that if I survived everything that had happened this year, I would celebrate my beloved season of Christmas like I had never celebrated before.

So I cultivated the JOY and GRATITUDE in my heart and gave unlimitedly to the husband who had been spared to remain with me. Our relationship is the deepest it has ever been and we make each other laugh all the time.

We have made the commitment together to refuse anything less that JOY.

This Christmas even my husband (who is usually standoffish about the season) got out and strung lights and commented that this act had given him real bliss. He understands the lights give JOY to others and make them happier.

For the first time in many years (because of my illnesses) we have a tree (fake - a gift from a friend who came and helped decorate the house) and the house is lit and decorated and giving joy to all who come.

This year I finally surrendered to my heart and to my calling my dharma.

I was born in a medical family. My father pushed me to become a doctor. Because of his vivisection, I rejected this.

I have been told by many I have a healing way. I am already a counselor. My Astrology says, counselor, healer, guide, edifier and motivator. (Also Astrologer) These are my gifts. Because of ignorance I rejected them.

But this year, after five years of following and learning Ayurveda on my own, and healing my own liver (chronic active hepatitis) and a neurological disorder, I surrendered and began my certification in Ayurveda.

When this is finished I will receive training in the rest.

My real friends and family are excited and JOYFUL at this.

So this is a summary (Kind of long but actually very brief compared to what happened over the 365+ days) of some intense letting go.

I have been journeying to this point step by step over half a century now. I would not have been ready to share these things with all of you before now.

But my realization is that we all need each other. We are each here to bring each other to JOY. We could not meet and share like this if we were not ready to do so.

So let the PLAY begin. Enough of work!!! I am dead tired of it. I want to PLAAAAAYYY!