Okay, this one was wonderful, exciting and surprising, but now I'm contemplating.....

My "10"s were SO far out there that I'm not sure I'm ready for them. None of them had very much to do with my current business or the goals I had yesterday. All are super cool, but I find myself thinking that I'll do them "later" -- when I've finished the 6's, 7's and 8's that I've already started. Also, my yeah buts include needing the financial freedom to stop doing what I'm doing now. Plus, I don't like to abandon my current business goals. I feel that people are depending on me.

This is where time to ponder becomes very valuable, I guess. Does anybody really care whether I complete the goals I stated yesterday? Or do they just want me to be happy?

Hmmmmm.....


Am I still trying to "deserve" those crazy dreams by doing something more mundane first? The thing is, two things that made me really excited before this excercise: 1)running 4 or 5 successful dance studios at once, and 2) writing or adapting plays for money, both seem so easy now that they no longer hold the sweaty palms excitement that they had yesterday. That feels like kind of a gyp. I spent all this time and emotion on building toward those CMI's; now I'm supposed to abandon them for some stuff that's not even related? Can't I at least get the first stuff first? Or is that a silly waste of time?

As always, I know the answers will come from within as soon as my thinking is right. But I still wouldn't mind input from those who have been here.

Any thoughts?

Love and Blessings,
Rachel

Sometimes doing what we are doing now to the best of our ability is leading us towards our higher desires!

I see you as a person who will make the things that are important to you happen! Just do something every day that will lead you toward your targets!

Thanks Tom,

As I expected, a little distance has made this question, if not completely obvious, at least way less important.

I can follow whatever goals I want, and no exercise or recommendation can make me do otherwise. The truth is, NO ONE really cares what my goals are, as long as I'm enjoying following them. The exercise was for ME, and no one else.

This is now the third time that I've noticed myself getting defensive here. It happens when I think someone is telling me to do something I don't want to do.

I'm glad to have noticed it because it's clearly some sort of indicator.

On the other hand, I know why I'm resisting my new super cool dreams. They all seem so far out of reach. One is "too hard" (becoming fluent in several languages.) One is "too expensive" (owning and being able to fly my own helicopter.) One is "too unlikely" (performing in a Broadway show.)

You know, when I write them down like that, they don't seem so scary. Weird.

Okay, here's the REALLY scary one -- and it's been a dream of mine since I was a little kid: I'd love to go into space. In my mind, this is crazy because I don't really like heights, I have not enjoyed the feeling of weightlessness I've experienced on roller coasters or in small planes or helicopters, and for most of my life space flight has been completely out of reach for all but the most select astronauts. But really, now a-days, all it takes is a sound heart and a lot of money. The sound heart I've got. The money, well, I now believe I could have that if I set my mind to it.

Anyway, thanks very much for your response. It may seem as though I didn't take much from it, but just knowing someone read my post and thought enough about it to reply was really nice. (And thanks for the complement!)

Love and blessings,
Rachel

You're welcome Rachel.

I don't have any fear of heights, but always got motion sickness in small planes, on roller coasters, ships, boats at sea. I found recently on our British Virgin Island trip that Ginger does a great job of preventing motion sickness; you might try it as well!

I love ginger! I didn't know it was good for motion sickness. But I don't actually get motion sickness, I just don't enjoy the flip floppy feeling in my innards when I'm in free fall. On the other hand, it could be that I wouldn't mind the feeling if I were in control of it. I usually prefer to be in control.

Back to the topic of my CMI's. I am starting to realize that a big part of my life goal is to be able to look back on my life and know that I have accomplished something worthwhile -- that seems to translate into things that are hard.

Right now, I seem to be manifesting opportunities to prove how good I am. I'm teaching much more of everything, including stuff I've never taught before and things that I used to find intimidating. I truly do love the challenge, and I am grateful for the ability to do these things. Especially now that I know everything can be easy.

Still, I thought that I wanted to work LESS, or at least go do something different like open another studio or be in a show or go on vacation. The fact that I'm so very willing to take on extra work makes me think that working is what I really like, deep down. Or, perhaps I just want to "prove" that I can do it before I'm willing to let someone else do it for me.

I'm enjoying the ability to manifest what I need. I truly believe that I have the power to order and receive anything I choose. And the practical geniuses course certainly does give one plenty of food for thought!

Happy posting!
Rachel

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On the other hand, I know why I'm resisting my new super cool dreams. They all seem so far out of reach. One is "too hard" (becoming fluent in several languages.) One is "too expensive" (owning and being able to fly my own helicopter.) One is "too unlikely" (performing in a Broadway show.)

Why do you believe one is too hard? One too expensive? and the other too unlikely?

Seems to me your desire to be in control is hitting against SOGR philosophy of leaving the How to the Formless

God bless you,

Caroline
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Caroline,

Of course, you are right. This exercise had the effect of uncovering dreams that had been buried under layers of excuses. My mind is opening up to possibilities I haven't believed in since I was a kid. I'm starting to understand now that these goals are really no more difficult than anything else I might want. As Yoda said: "NO difference! Only different in your MIND."

Right now in my life a lot of things are changing in ways I didn't predict. I'm sure it's all a result of my new thinking. I believe it was Rebecca who said something like, "Sometimes it can seem that things are going wrong, but really they're just going."

I'm starting to notice that anxiety about financial security can block almost any dream. Here I can be having a lovely little daydream about landing my helicopter in the church parking lot, and I start to wonder how much debt I had to go into in order to buy that thing (the helicopter, not the church parking lot.) How stupid is that?

Besides, one of the things that appeals to me about the helicopter, is that it's so ridiculously ostentatious that thoughts of incorporating a helicopter into my daily life are just funny. I laugh every time I think of it. XD

I'm rambling a bit.

Anyway, thanks mucho for your input. I will let go of trying to control the formless (because, really, how stupid is that? )

Love and blessings,
Rachel

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How stupid is that?

You put it that way twice in this one post of yours. I think that's interesting.

It seems to me it would be better to put it differently. It seems to me, the message your subconscious is getting is, a part of you is stupid. And, from what I understand, our subconscious does not discern what we tell it. It merely goes to work, to make true what we tell it.

Instead of, "How stupid," how about, "How interesting." It is interesting, isn't it?

Btw, I like the helicopter idea, and all your ramblings. One of my wild ideas is to take a undersea ride in a nuclear submarine, or one of those luxury private submarines with picture windows.

Luxury Subs

Phil

Tony Robbin's first book tells of him being 30 pounds overweight and broke; and 4 years later being picked up from a speaking engagement in a heliopter and transported to his home!

KEEP YOUR DREAMS; THEY ARE THE FOUNDATIONS OF YOUR CMIS!

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One of my wild ideas is to take a undersea ride in a nuclear submarine, or one of those luxury private submarines with picture windows.

Phil, why is that such a wild idea?

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Originally posted by Phil:

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How stupid is that?

You put it that way twice in this one post of yours. I think that's interesting.

It seems to me it would be better to put it differently. It seems to me, the message your subconscious is getting is, a part of you is stupid. And, from what I understand, our subconscious does not discern what we tell it. It merely goes to work, to make true what we tell it.

Instead of, "How stupid," how about, "How interesting." It is interesting, isn't it?

Phil

You may be right about messages to the subconscious. When I wrote "stupid" it didn't feel deprecating to me at the time -- I just meant "silly" and "unnecessary" in a laughing sort of way. However, now that you've put it that way, I'm all self conscious about it. I actually think that labeling an unwanted action as "stupid" is a great way to get me to stop doing it. I like to think of myself as pretty smart, so doing stupid things doesn't fit my self image.

That reminds me of the brief period when I could get my son to stop doing anything by telling him it wasn't cute.

Anyway, thanks for pointing that out. I will watch my wording.

Love and helicopters (and submarines) to all!
Rachel

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Love and helicopters (and submarines) to all!

Hiehie! Love that, Rachel!

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I will watch my wording.

Only if it pleases you to do so. Your words aren't what's creating; that's your thoughts.

It can be useful, illuminating, fascinating to watch the words that spring to your tongue, but MUCH more useful to pay attention to the thoughts and feelings they are describing.

Thanks for letting me off the hook! It might cramp my style to be constantly watching out for the word police!

Rachel