I have just been doing LL3 and it has raised many questions inside me. When I look over the past months spending, I have realised something quite obvious - I am the main breadwinner of the family and I put myself under pressure to do all the providing. I am currently on maternity leave (unpaid) and I want to succeed with a business that I have set up so I can stay at home with my baby as I do not want to use childcare. It's like I want it all. I know that its ok to want it all but I think that I put myself under pressure to do this. For instance, I do the weekly shop most of the time, I am the one that organises dinner, looks after all of the baby's needs, do the business, manage the apartment. I seem to have gone into a role where I am responsible for everything and delegate all the tasks. The pressure I feel is so intense with the business as I have little money left in the bank and unless I start earning soon, I will have to go back to a job where I am very unhappy. I have always earned more than my husband and I now realise that we relied heavily on my income. The business is a passion of mine and I am here learning the skills, getting rid of my old thinking to make it succeed. I have before over the years had many great idea but none of them succeeded and I am hoping the LL's will give me a reason why so I don't do the smae with this business. In any event, this coming week will give me areal indication of the appetite for my business as all the sales and marketing information went out this week and we are following up next week. I know that SOGR works because in this week, I have been introduced to leads and contacts of companies that may be interested in my business - even from people that I have not heard from for months, its just trying to keep the fear abated and the belief in success there.

I look forward to updating you in the next few days with success stories!

Much love xx

I can relate. I've been there when my husband was also unemployed and I had 2 small children at home. Talk about scary. Sadly, I had not yet been introduced to SOGR at the time, but now I think I know what to do.

Whenever you feel scared, remember that the universe is giving you all that you want and need right now. You only have to prepare yourself to receive it.

Find something, anything, to make you feel better -- even a little bit better. Focus on what is going well (this can be hard, but do it anyway) and know that it is NOT your responsibility to "work" for what you need. It is your responsibility to FEEL GOOD.

In your daily life, if you feel overwhelmed by the volume of tasks you have set for yourself, do what I do. First: I try NOT doing some of them. It's kind of amazing that the universe doesn't actually collapse on itself if I don't do all the stuff I think I'm supposed to. While you're at it -- who decided you need to do all that stuff anyway? Did your mother do it? Did you read a book? Did you just make up some idealized version of a Stepford wife? Don't ever do anything because "they" say you're supposed to. That's the biggest scam ever. Anyway, try just doing less and relaxing more and ignore anyone who thinks they need to tell you how to live your life. (Including me, if you disagree with my ideas. )

Here's another one that I truly love: For the things that you really want to do well, just relax and imagine that no matter how hard it is, YOU can handle it. It might be hard for some people, but you can do it with no problem. And it will be fun!
I've done this over and over again since discovering this course and it works like a charm.

Always remember that your JOB is to know what you want and to feel good. Crazy, but somehow, bafflingly effective.

Stay with the forums and keep doing the course. We're all here for you and I know you'll do great!

Love and Blessings,
Rachel

Thanks Rachel, I am really grateful for the time you took to give me such a thorough response. I am definitely going to put in place your suggestions. With respect to feeling good - I am trying and this morning I am treating myself to a cheeky trip to the hairdressers, as a lttle pick me up and constantly offering gratitude for all the wonderful things that i have around me - and there are plenty of them, once you start looking.

I will keep you updated on everything xx