Today is a contemplative day. (month, year..etc)

How on earth can our minds wrap around "All the life I'm capable of living"? Its HUGE. The flavor for me right now is dreaming bigger.
I have been thinking about this...all the life. I am thinking: Maybe I am waiting until I get to a place where I am capable of living all the life I want before I actually define what that is. Maybe I have created my own circle to run in so that I don't disappoint myself.
The truth of the matter is I would rather not have my own business. No WONDER I only have one client!
The truth of the matter is that I am really really good at what I DO but I don't necessarily want to DO it all day, every day for money. The truth of the matter is that I'm better at what I DO when I'm doing it for free! Worth issue? I dunno...
Maybe I'm subconciously feeling that when I place a dollar sign on what I do I am devaluing it?
Years ago I taught myself how to read tarot. I was REALLY good at it...am really good at it. I did it all the time and I did it for free. Money started to flow and to this day it still does. Then I moved into coaching because basically I was coaching while I was reading tarot. I am REALLY good at it. Then I branched into coaching without tarot because that to me was more "legit". Thats when the wheel fell off the cart. Thats when I started doing what I do to earn money instead of because I loved it. Up until now this is where I've been with it but I'm hopeful of defining a NEW CMI and moving beyond this particular boulder.
Maybe I should go back to tarot alone and let the money flow while I redefine...redefine...
Tarot for me is no longer in the creative realm. I feel its "used up"
Coaching for me is half at best. I want clients who commit.
Maybe I don't really want clients(?)
Does anyone here have any ideas or clues or tidbits for how to erase the previous CMI to begin again? How do we utelize our talents in creating a new CMI when all the old thoughts and expectations are all still there?
It seems like house cleaning is necessary but maybe I am just temporarily overwhelmed with the clutter?

Thoughts?

xoxooxoxo

Hi Blissed

I'm very new to this myself but it seems that you have a lot of worry about the 'how to get what you want' rather than focussing on the 'what you perfect life looks like'. It might help to start your CMI from scratch again by just writing out your ideal life without worrying about how it will happen at the moment.

I know many people like to write out their CMI in a book but it works well for me to type it so that I can go back and adjust it easily if it doesn't feel just right. I have only started putting mine together in the past week but doing this has really helped me. I have been very descriptive about details of my life that I know I want and have to trust that the how will come in time. Doing it this way enables me to become asorbed in the detail of the CMI and at this stage I have not focussed at all on whether this will be via my own business or otherwise.

If you focus on your goals, the right opportunity will present itself and you will then know what business you want to be into.

Hope this helps and look forward to hearing how you are getting on.

Jo x

I used to have very clear CMI's about what I desired in my life. I got it! But my CMI's has changed and I've formulated new ones totally irrelevant to the previous one.

The way I understand to "erase" the older ones is to simply not focus on them. I still remember my older CMI's but they have no power to manifest.

Jomay: Try writing out your CMI's instead of typing. There is something magical about this which is also mentioned in Think and Grow Rich. It impresses upon the mind better. My CMI's are written and typed - I type it first for easy editing then write out copies to perfection.

Blissed, you don't need to erase anything or start again. In fact, you can't really do that. Everything in your experience up 'til now is part of the process, part of what's brought you to now.

AND ... the past doesn't matter. There's only where you are now and where you want to be. What do you want? Why do you want it? Can you find a way of thinking that lets you be happy and relax into that gap?

Do what pleases YOU and forget about what anyone else thinks is "legit."

The ONLY reason for "creating a CMI" is to bring you to a point of focus that causes you to feel enthusiasm and joy NOW ("Enter at once into the full enjoyment ..."). If you don't feel wonderful when contemplating that particular thought, then think about something else!

Thank you Rebecca and everyone from more clarity with this!
I am going a little bit deeper with each reading of sogr. I think I'm getting something bigger then I had before.
Now when I play with my idea of a clear mental image being what I love to play with and what brings me feelings of appreciation I realize that my total focus was on what to do for a living and what would bring me joy doing it for a living. I think I had to many clauses in there. I understand a new level of source seeking life through our appreciation of different aspects of life.
As of right now I have a vague picture for the beginings of a cmi. I can see soulful sharing and also that I would like to have two residences, one on the beach and one in the mountains. This is my place of connection. I knew that Sunday when I visited the shore. So when you formulate the CMI do you state "I want". Something about writing it leaves me feeling like whooooaaaa.....as if I'm planning out my whole life and then I'll be commited to living it that way LOL...I know its silly but I keep going there and freezing.
I feel as though I should be writing my vision as I tell clients to: I am living on the beach with my husband and...and....I am successful in a soulful busines...etc.
The issue I'm having with this is that I can't see how we can live right now in the moment just skipping along enjoying and letting things flow to us if we are busy forming something in the future. Can someone clarify that for me?

Thanks so much for any input!

xoxoxo
Carrie

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Now when I play with my idea of a clear mental image being what I love to play with and what brings me feelings of appreciation I realize that my total focus was on what to do for a living and what would bring me joy doing it for a living. I think I had to many clauses in there. I understand a new level of source seeking life through our appreciation of different aspects of life.

Hi Blissed!
I recently realized I was doing the same thing, getting more and more frustrated because I couldn't think of anything I wanted to DO - for a living, or to get money. (I really like staying home! But Wally says we do need to have our business arranged so we can receive, and give the other person what they deserve, too. So I finally just decided to let the "Universe" handle it, and bring me just the right money-making opportunity for me, while I focus on what I DO know I want: house, travel plans, etc. I felt so much relief at that! Now I can't wait to see what shows up!!!
Be blessed,
Kari